WYSIWYG

2011-01-11T22:27:00.004+08:00

i dont know, but i feel kinda bad encouraging my juniors to come AJ.
k lah, not say encourage them, but probably just phrase my words in a better way.
Maybe i just want to see more CCHY people/familiar faces in this school ;/

Anw come to think of it, i think AJ is okay? for now. (i know i just bitched about it a few mths ago)
aside from the horrible canteen food and a 20+ year old building, i think everything else is still tolerable.
Am really glad that my lit paper 1 tcher( a.k.a pw st) is still teaching us this year. think that she's the most awesome-mest teacher ever :D
Which teacher would tolerate their students calling her 'babe' or that she has a 'bikini tan line' right? haha.

As for my class, i think in comparison to other mugger/'scholars loaded' classes, my class is quite happening haha.
and not forgetting we are smart as well. Top arts class woots!! :D

k i dont know what's got into me. probably because it's the 2nd day of school and it's a new start for me. i think i'll start bitching about it again in time to come. ;//

looking forward to open house tmr. hope to see some cchy people there! :)

2011-01-10T13:59:00.002+08:00

1st day of school is alright but i hate my timetable so muchh. ):
there are days where there are so many gaps in between lessons but there are days where everything is like cramped together.
I have 4 hours of lessons straight on Wednesday, especially it is the day with morning PE and CCA! ):

anw was at the swimming pool ytd when 3 aunties at the side was talking.
and then, they suddenly turned around to my direction and started blabbering some hokkien stuff.
im not sure if they were looking at me since i was looking from my side and they were saying "not that round la" in hokkien. And one auntie was like saying how her friend said she looked fatter.

Went back home and asked my mum for the translation and then i asked her if i really looked that round ):
then she just looked at me and said nothing.

Was so affected by it until i went to school today and people were saying i looked bonier or that i've shrunk.

so frustrating la seriously, although i can't confirm if the aunties were really talking about me but.
it's just so frustrating. D:

k i shall not talk about this touchy subject anymore.
it riles me up so much. D: <

btw, i have yet to think about a new blog url and lazy to think of one.
so i think i shall stick to this blog for the time being.

2011-01-09T00:54:00.002+08:00

Adam couple
October 2009 - 6 January 2010.

T_T i seriously cried after knowing that they are leaving WGM.
not trying to sound overly emotional but yea, they are the second couple that i've actually watched on WGM after hwangbo & hyunjoong.

sigh. my saturdays would really feel so empty without them and i dont think i will watch WGM after their last episode next week. Maybe i'll watch a little of khuntoria if the episode's interesting.

):

2011-01-06T18:12:00.002+08:00

Omg finally got my payslip!!! LIKE AFTER 1 MONTH++ -_-

it's a lot more than i expected, since i didnt include OT.
YAY i can get my dry cabi and 50mm prime lens soon! :)

2011-01-06T00:55:00.002+08:00

shit im spending too much moneyyyy ):

Currently spent close to $50 for filters and lcd protecter.
And now, i need to spend another $150 for dry cabi and im contemplating whether to buy a prime lens or not. (around $150 also)

think im going to tap on my work salary /bursary award money.

sighhh!! ):

2011-01-03T19:45:00.003+08:00

i just realised that the previous post was my 500th post.

anw, i'm thinking about opening another public blog and have my current livejournal as my private one instead.

it's so suffocating to rant here knowing that there are some people who are reading it.

i dont really feel like abandoning this blog cause it's like 3 years old but well, i dont think it's safe to make this blog public.
i shall post the link up soon.

2011-01-03T19:27:00.004+08:00

I hate it when people stuff words into my mouth, and dare to say things that i've never ever said.
I'm just trying to get back that $100+ that you've lost, and you just think that im blaming you and everything.
and i've not fucking get a phone call from you, not even during new year last year.

aaaaaaaareghhhhhhhhhhhlaksjd.

2011-01-03T02:20:00.005+08:00

I got my DSLR today!!! :)
Still trying to grasp the skills and woots! because of my new toy today is a no homework day again! haha :)

anw i feel quite bad for my dad as well. He kind of, got 'chopped carrot head' because that stupid salesperson cajoled him into buying this 'wide angle converter' which seems very professional and stuff.

But after i went to research on it, it's just a marketing tactic to cheat newbies to DSLR of their money. (p.s. i didnt go with my dad to buy the camera)
Cause that wide lens thingy sucks.
there's so much chromatic aberration, barrel distortion, vignetting yada yada. and the worst thing is, it's fking heavy, that my wrist hurt after holding it for just 5 minutes.
And what's more it's fking overpriced and cost about $150. (He said that it's discounted price from $300++. bullcrap.)

I dont know if i'll ever use that heavy and useless lens. But aye, really v heartpain for that $100++. i can buy a 50mm prime lens with that money!! and it provides so much more quality!! ):
The tripod provided is also cheap and low quality as well. The SD card is some unknown class card.
SO PISSED OFF WHEN I'M TYPING ALL THESE.
My dad should have asked me to go. argh.
Although i'm a newb in this kind of things as well (i think i would believe the salesperson's words if i was there about the wide angle lens crap), but i think i might know which is the better bundle to buy.

My dad said its okay cause it's normal to be cheated when just started.
It makes me feel so bad, cause i'm the one who's asking for a DSLR ):
I think the best thing i can do is to really use the camera well. sigh.

I like this picture although my face and hair look really fugly.
but i like the bokeh :)
i edited my skin a little though, cause the camera captures so much flaw on my face hmph ): <

Sorry for bombarding so much photography jargon here. heh :B

2011-01-01T00:15:00.004+08:00

Now that 1st January is here it makes the start of school seems a lot closer than i thought.
9 more days. (minus 2 days with CCA and i'm left with exactly a week!!! )

Instead of enjoying the festive spirit, i'm here worrying about completing my homework.
argh.
i can finish it. i will finish it.
I swear i will wake up by 9:30am tmr
MUST!!! ):

2010-12-31T01:45:00.003+08:00

Have been quite some time since i've written a new year resolution.
Today would be the last day of 2010.
It's really a tough year, although it passed by really quickly for me, all thanks to the JC curriculum.
Many mistakes made this year, hope that i won't repeat them in 2011.

New Year Resolution for 2011.
1. Studies are to be priority for this year. (A levels T_T)
2. Sleep by 11:30pm every night.
3. Swim/run one to two times per week.
4. Be more controlled in my temper. (kind of impossible)
5. Spend less money.
6. Pick up photography and learn korean after A's.
7. Do my best in everything. (that includes CCA as well ;/)
8. Must slim down to my ideal weight or lower (i'm 1kg away from it, meh)

2010-12-30T01:16:00.002+08:00

Today's another unproductive day ):

The homework i'm left with:

Geog: 1DRQ and 1 essay
Lit: -Reflection on selected text.
-Set text essay and poem response.
Maths: Normal distribution tutorial (95% complete)
GP: -6 learning tasks.
-MYE comprehension paper (left AQ)
-directed reading package
-organise GP file
Econs: Macroecons research report.

AHHHHHHHH.
i dont know how to finish all these homework @_@ll
especially econs, which is suposedly to be typed out in PW written report format.

i have cca tmr and i think they are going to spam practices next week as well.
grrr. no time alr! ):

2010-12-26T13:41:00.002+08:00

omg my dad agreed to buy me the DSLR as a 'new year present'!!
O:!!

but he wants to know what i want to shoot so that he can buy the specific type of lens instead of using the kit lens.
acty i dont really mind the kit lens lah, as in for general purposes.

OMG IM SO HAPPY IM GONNA DIE!!! :D

2010-12-26T00:12:00.006+08:00

I just came back from shopping at NEX.
Got huge blisters after walking for 6 hours in heels.

Miniature size picture cause i dont want a huge picture of my ugly feet on my blog ;/

My gosh, 1m away from home seems like running a marathon.
i swear i'll never wear heels for shopping trips ever again. ): <

Was looking for the camera i wanted

AND I WANT IT SOOOOOOOOOO KASJDHALDJAKSJDLAJKSKAS

BADLY!!! ):
Noisy pictures and blur pictures in low light puts me off. So i really want a good quality DSLR!

I dont know how to ask my dad for it as a christmas present but i dont know if he's even willing in the first place.
and i really don't want to fork out $1k plus from my savings ):
sighhhh.
anw i've changed my target to a canon DSLR. so that i've more reason to use my canon point&shoot as well.

sigh ):

2010-12-23T18:55:00.002+08:00

Panasonic Lumix GF1

Another 'i wantttttttt' post.
haha xD

Ok have been researching on cameras for the past few days (yea instead of doing my homework *coughs coughs*).
And i found this perfect camera that is lightweight, compact and with DSLR type of image quality.

But it's like super ex la.
S$1299 for zoom kit lens or S$1499 for pancake(20mm) lens.
That's equivalent to a middle range DSLR price.

But looking at the images taken by reviewers, the image quality is quite impressive.

How?? Should i wait till my 2 year old canon ixus spoil or should i beg my dad to buy one for me for christmas?

Ahhh. ):

2010-12-17T02:10:00.004+08:00

homework is so annoying seriously.
i havent started on any essays yet. just doing all those little things that doesn't require much work. like reading the novels or newspaper articles.
i dont know if i can finish after the december break. sighh. i rly can't seem to focus on a particular work for more than an hour.

anw went back to cchyco on wednesday.
missed them so much. and they changed their instruments to the new ones!! $800 each lehhh. jealous muchh ): ong kock hua must have struck rich overnight.

i realised it had been eons since i uploaded a photo here so there you go! :D
my hair is messy but whatever.

it's 2:32am now.
i'm tired but i guess i will have to start a little bit of my geog alr. ):

2010-12-07T20:35:00.004+08:00

consequences of not warming up before a swim:

Badly strained arms and thighs.

So painful that i can't lift my arms up without a huge effort.
I wonder how i am going to survive the intensive CO practice tomorrow.

2010-12-06T14:02:00.004+08:00

Had the most horrible dream ever.
And to add on, it was one of the dreams that seem so clear.

There were so many events happening so i can't remember all of them specifically.
But to sum it up it was that i was tricked into being injected this 'i dont know what' substance' and then went around to massacre people, stabbing them in their hearts with a spear.
The scariest thing is that i felt nothing in killing these people. No guilt, no nothing.
I was killing people with another guy, can't remember the face.

There were like zombies, vampires, monsters and lots of bloodshed in that dream.

it's a really scary dream. and so real that i could literally smell the blood of the people i killed.

does it metaphorically mean something?
i think i'm seriously having weird dreams these few days.

2010-12-05T18:43:00.002+08:00

If my flu gets better tomorrow i will go swimming.
i swear.
have been procrastinating about exercising although i have already set on my exercise regime this holiday.
but in a way, my really bad flu have been a hindrance as well as my sleeping time - i sleep at the break of dawn and wake up in the late afternoon.
so that kind of drains away my motivation to exercise.

i think im going crazy about losing weight.
although i have lost about 5-6kg since last year(due to skipping breakfast and having a small lunch by waking up late), i really want to reach my ideal weight.
im one kg away, but it's really hard to get rid of this one kg ):

i dreamt about miss chan (my pw st/ lit teacher) asking me to go on a diet and lose weight just yesterday night.
It's seriously very random i know LOL.
but yea, it has already intercepted into my dreams - thats how bad it is xD

on the other hand, i hope my flu and sore throat can get worst since i really want a legitimate reason for not going to CO.
last week was intensive practice from 9am-5.30pm, 3 days a week.
next week's going to be the same, and i really dread going for CO.
so instead of weaving some stupid reason and having to come under scrutinity of our section leader, i would rather make myself sick and submit a MC to her instead of a parent's letter.

sigh. what an irony.

2010-11-29T18:35:00.002+08:00

have so much words that i need to get off my chest, but i really dont know how to start.
I'm largely at fault. If it was me, i would definitely be really pissed off.

Perhaps a word 'sorry' would not suffice.
We both have the same bad temper, the same impetuosity.
I guess a comparison to a magnet that ' like poles repel' would be appropiate.

i should have appreciated you more.

we probably wont see each other that much, now that it is the holidays.
but i really hope everything would be okay.

-

2010-11-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

I think i have lost my sense of rythm and music.
Idk. I can't recognise rythms now and this give my instructor a lot of chances to rant at me.
i think she dislikes me. I mean it's extremely obvious. Anything mistakes made she'll shout at me. Say that i'm dumb, stupid, whatever names you can think of. And when i do well, she won't say anything.
But to other experienced players she's extremely nice to them, even if they made mistakes.
She's one of the reason why i hate CO so much now.
And the loss of my 'music sense' could be attributed to my complete loss in passion in CO.
I can still remember how i used to practice at home and not complain even if the practice schedules is packed from monday to saturday in CCHYCO.
But now seriously. 3 hours of practice seems like 6 hours.

I think my life is kinda fucked up in AJC.
The study environment, the biased teachers, unapproachable people...
I can't say that i hate AJ. Because idk if things would be the same or even worst if i stuck to my choice of NYJC.
My class is okay, though rather segregated. But i really do value the friends i got to know :) In fact, without them, my life in AJ would be a total living hell.

Well on a positive note, I'll probably mature in persevering through this harsh environment.
haha, probably.
Shall anticipate the next hectic year.
The avalanche of homework is already cutting back half of my determination already.
And with the preparation for SYF and stuff.
And omg the syllabus for next year is so hardddd. T_T

okay sigh.
shall have a good sleep and prepare for work tmr.
Looking forward to working with sabby princess haha :)

2010-11-23T00:48:00.002+08:00

this is so annoying.
everything i type something, i find myself deleting everything away.

sigh. guess my life is that boring i guess.
i can't wait for work w sab at sitex show. & swimming session w clique on monday.

can't believe i played bejeweled for 2 hours straight. *_*

have to wake up early tmr for some alpha programme thing
i didnt even know i was selected until my friend checked the board and told me.
idiot ._. i missed the date to opt out of this stupid waste time thing.
arghhfff. Tmr was supposed to be my off day leh!! ): hmph.

2010-11-11T20:24:00.002+08:00

I've been stuffing myself with snacks and food these few days,
but im actually losing weight?!

LOL. yay. i'm one kg away from my ideal weight. :)
i'm motivated to diet again! :D

i can do it!

arh. i'm so bored that im rewatching BOF for the seventh time i guess. HAHA.
ok once the lectures start coming in i'll mug hard! :D

2010-11-10T17:30:00.002+08:00

PW was officially over yesterday :)

I can't promise that i'll get an A but i think that i really tried my best.

I think in terms of presentation it was one of the best I've ever done.
Q&A is sigh...

The question was :
'You have identified similarities about the energy supply between your case study and application area. Which do you think is the most impactful on the economic growth of the country?'

This question was obviously set to kill me what right?!
I just anyhow crapped and sort of apply a little of my econs skills.

Kinda glad that my classmates were nodding at my really rubbish answers to spur me on in finishing my ans.
Or else, i'll just say 'thank you' and walk away without attempting to finish my answer.

And then for the third group, another class ST and the PW head came in. And then the questions for the third group was manageable and were obviously in their question banks.
I think if the PW head was there they wouldn't set a killer question for me lor!

My PW ST was kinda shocked at the questions set. Even my group's best speaker was stumped by the question set by them.
hmph D: < i think my group got the most difficult questions lor! Arghf. whatever. Just hope that my other documents and presentation skills will pull up my overall grade.

Went to the movies after our PW OP. Paranomal activity 2.
Haha. It's different from other horror movies but the suspense is really intense.
The ending was stupid, seriously haha.

I shall start my exercise regime and revise J1 syllabus soon.
Hope that the momentum is still there ;/

2010-11-08T15:36:00.004+08:00

I feel like a retard talking to myself in the toilet, while cooking, before sleeping, trying to stuff all the prepared answers for Q&A into that saturated brain of mine as well as recalling my speech.

Tmr shall be the end of all these torture. I CAN'T WAIT!!!

:D

2010-11-05T03:22:00.003+08:00

I think it gets really annoying when people who are not even in a relationship are posting mushy love messages on their facebook or like some stupid lyrics quotes.

What's makes it even more gross is that this person doesn't even look asethetically appealing in real life. (Yes, it's a form of euphemism)

Who cares about your freaking one sided crush.

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i'm just a little angsty these few days.
4 more days to the end of this freaking torture.

I think i'm doing okay for my PW OP, currently at EE for all requirements.
Just pray super hard that the examiners wont come up with some weird questions on the actual day.

2010-11-01T21:25:00.003+08:00

I'm so worn out seriously.
I can't wait for next tuesday to come. I want to get PW over and done with.

I want to go kboxing with the witch&dragon.
I want to go eat dimsum with 32/10.
I want to work and earn money.
I want to go SHOPPING.

The use of anaphora shows my dying need to have a life.

2010-10-31T01:51:00.002+08:00

I can't do it.

i'm so sick of PW OP alr.
It's really something that i can't do. Speaking in front of an audience and eloquently.
I lack this oratical skills and the ability to think on my feet for Q&A. It's something i can't do, even after countless practices as compared to writing essays.

About a little more than one week left to the real OP assestment.
Can i make a difference?

2010-10-25T18:15:00.004+08:00

I'M PROMOTING TO JC2! :D

was having a rather hard time for the past few days, getting myself ready to receive the crappy results and to retain.
My promo results was really unexpected. I must say im pleased with it, or fully satisfied if i didnt count in my mid years ( D: <) It's not the best i can do, not when napping from 2-6pm 2 days before promos, not when using the computer for 4 hrs per day doing crap. Shall push myself harder next year.

GP- 61/100+ 2 (mod) -> 63 B (oops, didn't know its upon 100 instead of 90 ;/)
Maths - 63/100 B (omg from U to B)
Lit: (paper 1 + paper 5) 39/75 -> 52 D (omg i passed lit!! )
Geog: 60/100 B
Econs: 40/55 -> 72 -> A

After adding mid years, most of them actually fall around 59 or 69, which is like 1 mark to A or B. Sian. -.- i really do hope that they have moderation or something.

k bye :)

2010-10-18T03:00:00.003+08:00

when the seniors say that your group members would make pw a lot tougher than it already is, i couldn't agree more now.

It's frustrating when instructions fall on deaf ears at this crucial point in time.
seriously, im so curious. Wth are you so busy with when promos and everything are over?

fucking pissed. idk what would happen tmr but seriously i dont want to care anymore.

2010-09-30T23:42:00.001+08:00

spent my entire day doing lit paper 5 and i still have paper 1.
ARGHHH. I think i dont need to sleep tonight alr.

tmr still need to wake up at 7am although it's a study break (what an oxymoron >.>)

3 more days to promos-

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH ##&$)*@#&$!@

2010-09-20T01:48:00.002+08:00

i didn't know that a period of less than a year would make that much difference.

"And if the razor grass cut my legs and arms I would think 'It's better than people.'
Black ants or red ones, tall nests swarming with white ants, rain that soaked me to the skin- once i saw a snake. All better than people.

Better. better, better than people"

-Wide Sargasso Sea.

2010-09-11T15:26:00.005+08:00

Remember some time around June i wanted this:

I said about getting the fake ones. But the blogshop owner died or something so i didnt get a reply from her.

Guess what, i GOT THE AUTHENTIC ONE JUST A FEW DAYS AGO :DD

I soompa these are real cause my dad spent like $192 for these little jewels after 20% discount (original price $240).
After using these for like a few days, i must say, these are actually ridiculously overpriced.
The sound quality is not really fantastic, after comparing it with my brother's $117 Klipsch's earphones. And the fact that it's super uncomfortable due to its design and it keeps dropping out of my ear.
However, the thing i really liked about these are its tangle-free cables, which is seriously a major turn off for most headphones and its bass is also less distorted as compared to some $15 earphones you see around. (I realised i sound like some gadget reviewer from CNet lol)
I think the reason why its so expensive is because of the branding, the fact that it is designed and endorsed by Lady gaga. Not a big fan of her, but just thought the design was nice and that it was from Monster and Dr Dre.

But anw, my dad got $10k bonus so in a way, he struck rich overnight. So he just spend this money without thinking much. heh.

I dont know how to fit this into the post but anw, i bought this box of macarons which cost a hefty $8 for 6 mini macarons from Bakerzin.
A complete rip off, plus they dont taste as great as how people raved about it.
But anw, i bought this for my mum as an apology gift for making her wait for hours. She isn't that appreciative of it though. Dont know is act shy or really unappreciative.

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Sigh that's 3 more weeks to promos. i can't say im very prepared for it. the amount of content for geog is crazy. Maths is full of question marks. Macro econs is damn hard. Lit, i dont even understand the novels.

how to pass?!

2010-09-01T17:21:00.002+08:00

IDIOT, i fucking spent 1h++ editing your stupid minutes of meeting when im just supposed to vet.
And please lah, you only spent like 40++ minutes when YOU are the one who's supposed to do it?!

i have to add on so many things and then you tell me : "you never change a lot also what. I dont see any big differences"

Firetruck you.

If you think yours so great then you submit yours lor. see what the ST has to say.

always hand up sloppy pieces of work and expect the other group members to wipe your ass.
now we are not going to care kay. just present your sloppy slides and see what miss chan has to say about it lor.

I seriously want to email miss chan privately so that she can come up with an irregularity report.
i have enough evidences to show his pieces of work that is done within like 30 minutes, asking people do help him do work.

but yea, i no guts lah ok. and i dont really want conflicts.

FORGET IT. let his work speak for itself.

2010-08-08T18:32:00.003+08:00

things that i need to complete this holiday:

-geog tutoral 1a and migration
-geog hydro tutorial (damn lots of qns)
-econs test
-lit annotate poem
-lit project find text
-maths vj promo
-read wss
-taming induction, act 1 and act 2-> in depth reading +annotation
-PW: case study
-PW: target audience.

Agenda for today:
-Do that stupid dance cover for charmaine's b'day, which is tmr. die @_@
-complete at least half of the work stated above.

going to stay up tonight. even if it means not slping at all. By hook or by crook must complete half of the things stated. the fact that i only have half a day to do so due to pw ealier on . (it's 6:34pm now)
Econs test, i might require an entire day to do. plus tuesday maybe need to go do some interview for primary research. SO MY SCHEDULE IS V V PACKED.

ANW, went for cchy cultural night thing ytd.
IT WAS AWESOMEEEEEEE :)
there are some mistakes here and there la. and long awkward silence in between the play scenes.
it's still good though.
AND CCHYCO ROCKS TTM!!! I think they played perfectly :)
compared to ajco, >.>

and so glad that my juniors for my section maintained the standards.
im starting to miss them alr ):

2010-08-05T23:31:00.002+08:00

FKED UP.
It's 11:32 pm now.
i'm left to do all the PW work.
WHOLE WR DUE TMR.

STRATEGIES -> Tons of problems. no statistics etc, framework, NOT done.
CASE STUDY -> The fking guy in my grp gave me rubbish work and expect me to help him rephrase the entire learning point. havent compile yet. Yea as expected, NO ONE BOTHERED TO COMPILE.

YOU TELL ME HOW TO COMPLETE EVERYTHING BY TMR?!

I REALLY DONT KNOW WHT'S WITH MY GRP'S MORALE.
they agreed to do the strategies part in the afternoon (i had cca so cant do ). When i came back, ask about the progress, and NOTHING was done?! SO IRRITATED.

FUCK MY LIFE.

2010-08-04T20:09:00.003+08:00

WHY IS EVERYTHING SO AGAINST ME TODAY?!

Firstly. PW.
We were doing some research on target group when we realised that they have already implemented the strategy that we wanted to in the first place. #&)*#$@#. But miss chan say that there's still a chance to salvage it. sigh idk lah.

Secondly. CO.
Had enough of the instructor alr.
now i just roll my eyes and ignore her.
i've tried my best alr. what more do you want?
and then, im forced to play sx for the lunchtime concert.
dont know say how many times alr that i didnt want to but apparently, my opinions meant nothing.
i dont want to learn a fking new instrument, cause it just gives the instructor more chances to scold me . she can just go on repeating the fact that 'i have experience so i am an expert in every freaking co instrument ' lor.
i rly wanna quit co ):

thirdly.
A bit paiseh. i thought that my parcel arrived so i spammed call my mum asking for the mailbox key. i even sent a rude message to her asking her to pick up the call. eventually i found the key since she didnt pick up -_-
when i opened up the mailbox. i realised it's a piece of advertisement paper tht is slightly lifted to look like a parcel. >.> so my spam calls, the mess i made when finding the key and all that frustration is for nothing .

idk my life is getting worst. promos are in less than 2 mths time and i don't think im well prepared.
miss tay is coming back to take us for GP. i can't imagine what her reaction would be when she see the class in this state. i can imagine her saying "class, where's your 100++ newspaper articles that you have done for the period of time i was away?' shit.

argh. screwedddd. ):

2010-07-25T19:18:00.002+08:00

SCREW PW.
It's gonna be another 1h sleep night today.
i realised i have so many homework not done. URGH. Was screaming my head off when i uncovered more and more undone worksheets. FK LAH.

Why am i still habouring hopes when time and again you disappoint me?

2010-07-24T01:40:00.003+08:00

That's how fucked up i look now.

Went to the eye specialist today.
and he said that there's lack of oxygen in my cornea.
And the fact that, my cornea is currenly arnd 30 yrs old although im just 16 going 17?!

plus i have sinus and eczema, which means that in the first place, i am not suitable to wear contacts at all.
So i have to stop wearing contacts for at least 2 mths. Best is not wear it at all. Sigh. I didnt know it was that bad.

have to wear the eye patch thingy for the whole of saturday and sunday, which means i can't go out at all.
im struggling to keep my right eye close and left eye open. Plus this means i can't do long hours of computer work also. The fact that my bloody wr and eom is due on monday. URGH. bad timing. really.

SIGH.

IT'S SO FLUFFY IM GONNA DIE

2010-07-23T02:33:00.002+08:00

It's 2:30am now and im still doing lit essay.
Im still at intro. 4 more content paragraphs to go. HA.HA.HA. GG.

It was madness just now.
I dont know what i was doing. Was supposed to chiong the lit presentation then ended up SLEEPING. I was supposed to compile the stuff and send it to miss chan by 8PM. In the end i slept till like 9pm with 8 missed calls.
Damn freaked out. but yea, we just have to present w what we have tmr lor. ;/ felt so guilty. Hope it all goes well. Not the first time i got into trouble with my sleeping habits. first is late for meetups w/ people. 2nd is late for CCA. third is late for deadlines. @_@

thr's some amk trail tmr. will probably die with just 2h of sleep or less.
and then its going to the eye specialist. I really hope there isn't any problems with it ): can die without contact lens sia, esp during PE. pls pls pls pls ):

2010-07-22T00:22:00.002+08:00

This week sucks to the max. Can't wait for it to end.
first thing of this week was the conflict of the class with miss chan.
K not say conflict, just that she's disappointed in us. And she have gone to the extent of just giving some instructions and leaving the class before her lessons end. So she have been angry w us for like 5 days alr, including weekends?
This is like so extreme lah. I mean our class may be at fault but as a teacher, i dont think she need to go to this extent. Our pw is lost cause we didnt even have the chance to consult her. Dont know deadline for work. Don't know what's going on.
She has damn high standards lah. I dont think that the word 'mistakes' even exist in her dictionary.
Second thing is results. SIGH IDK WHAT TO SAY. I may have passed my 3 H2s after moderation but it's not a fantastic pass. I could have failed econs without the moderation.
How to promote like that?!

& third is CCA.
i've tried alr. th instructor's like expecting me to play the volume of 3 people.
in the past, it's like 6-7 ppl in our section. Now is like only 3-4 ppl, with the fact that all of them are inexperienced. Idk why she can't understand that.
I played the loudest i could, and she goes like "why you play so soft. you are the pp. why are you so useless."
Was so angry that i nearly cried la.
what for i put so much effort when the outcome is still the same??

IDK JUST FML OKAY.

2010-07-18T19:16:00.003+08:00

I seriously hate it when people take advantage of your kindness and is really unappreciative towards your efforts.
And the fact that she is less busy than every one of us due to less committments.
She just fking dump an effortless work to me and expects me to help her rephrase, change the font, decipher what she's trying to say with all those shortforms. WTF.
I volunteered to compile everything because everyone's ppt supposedly 'crashed' . (maybe im the only stupid one to admit that my ppt works fine.) So what, means that people can just dump me trash and expect me to translate them into quality work? I'M SO PISSED OFF LAH.

I havent been catching up with my sec sch friends because of schoolwork and for that i feel really guilty.
Sigh. I need a holiday!!

2010-07-13T22:41:00.002+08:00

Argh i did really badly for myct.
i failed like 2 subjects for now?
the other two (econs and lit) just got back half the paper only. doubt they would be well done too.

who to blame but myself right?
Was so angry looking at my maths paper. lack of experience in the chapters fine. lack of practice fine. but the careless mistakes i made are really unforgivable. Two same mistakes made somemore. URGH.

my lit result is currently the best out of the others, which is rather shocking to me. ;/ but half the paper only, i can't really judge yet.

SIGHHHH.

2010-07-12T16:47:00.003+08:00

i think im in deep shit trouble.

I was sort of combing my fringe after pe today. i took out the clip from my fringe and was talking to clara. and before i knew it, the clip actually sliced across my eye. not the lid but the EYE itself.
Ok i mean the sharp part of the clip actually SLIDE across my eye.
There was no redness etc. i tried putting eye drop just now and i acty felt a sharp pain.
omgggg. im damn freaked out can. i can still see pretty well but idk what to do leh. ):

anw i got my first S for myct. GP -_-
i was damn fucking stupid to choose a trick question with an absolute word in it. so i can see NAQs all over my script.
I will most probably be getting all the papers back tmr. Im gonna get a serious heart attack man.
arghjalskdjklasd.
Geog Econs MATHS. ARGH. DIE.

im gonna snatch bags at reebonz now k bye.

2010-07-11T17:42:00.003+08:00

arghfasjlk. charmaine and sab have been pressing me to do a cover for this. ):
im 80% done-learning. no time lah.

arghhhh.
I NEED TO DO WORK NOW NOW NOW NOW NIAOOOOWWW.
I have so many things to do that i dont know which to start on.
FFFFOOOOOKKKKKKKK.

i dont think i will be able to sleep tonight.

2010-07-03T16:53:00.002+08:00

ok so myct is over and i have been rotting at home since yesterday.
told myself to do some maths but heh, i really no motivation to do anything alr :)

Anw have been watching WGM for the whole of yesterday.
The gain and jokwon couple drives me crazy xD can feel the ache in my cheeks from all that laughing haha.

will be going kbox with 2 k-noobs tmr. (haha kidding xD)
think that first timers wont sing a lot so think i have to do alot of singing tmr ): my throat is damn bad now leh. eek.

btw im v v v happy now cause ss501 most probably wont disband :D
they will be in different companies but will still work together.
YAYYYYY ! :)

2010-07-01T15:49:00.002+08:00

I'm gonna expect a U for my myct.
well if there's another one would depend on tomorrow's paper.

I'm so demoralised and tired.

i'm probably going for maths tuition soon. the feeling of leaving so much fking blanks in an exam just sucks.
but my current financial situation is just discouraging me.
my mum's going jobless soon. my dad's unwilling to give me money.

2010's such a fked up year.
FML.

anw, if anybody of you got good lobang for maths tuition pls tell me thnks.

2010-06-29T13:41:00.001+08:00

WTF???!?!!?!

http://www.allkpop.com/2010/06/kim-hyun-joong-confirmed-to-leave-dsp-entertainment/comment-page-10#comments

"Kim Hyun Joong confirmed to leave DSP Entertainment

For the past couple of months, there have been rumors circulating that SS501’s leader Kim Hyun Joong would leave his agency DSP Entertainment once his contract comes to an end.

Well, it’s been confirmed that this one is true after all.

A related source confirmed on the 28th, “Kim Hyun Joong has decided not to renew his contract with DSP Entertainment. … He will move to another agency.” It’s also been reported that Hyun Joong will enter Keyeast (키이스트), an agency known for its prominent actors including Bae Yong Joon, Park Ye Jin, Bong Tae Gyu, Lee Bo Young, Lee Na Young and Hwanhee, so it’s very likely that Hyun Joong’s career will take the acting route.

...."

NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!
)))):

2010-06-22T19:20:00.002+08:00

thats
6 days more to mid year ct.

im half dead alr. ):

i think many people in my class is giving up. idk but 3 of them acty went to the general office to take the pink form to drop out of sch? and its influencing more people to do so?
and the thing is one of them is actually doing quite well. what's the point of giving up now, i dont understand.

-----

despite knowing the fact that im going to flunk my myct, i'll press on.
The best i can do is just to spend the rest of the days doing lifeless mugging and pray.

2010-06-19T00:12:00.003+08:00

Went to NUS ESI(energy studies institute) to interview a professors and his other colleagues. :)
They are like so nice k. They are doing us a favour but it really feels like we are some vip guests.
And the professor is a harvard graduate, with a Ph.D from Yale uni. omgosh @_@!
Plus his colleagues are all masters, straight A students. felt damn inferior when they are questioning us about statistics etc.

and one of them actually said -> going to economics in nus = jumping into a pool and drowning yrself. @_@ maybe i shld rethink going econs in uni.
for geog (physical) -> go to oil industry?! thats so far from my ideal job ):

sigh. life is hard. D:

i want a new headphone asap! my iphone one spoilt alr cause of the coke that was spilt on it. ):

2010-06-16T03:12:00.002+08:00

I've been going back to sch everyday since monday to MUGGG.
Glad i did that. if not i'll just procrastinate and rot at home.
it's when i really put my head into studying that i realised i have damn loads of things to cover. esp geog. im expecting the geog paper to be hard. SIGH.

anw i've turned into a clean freak overnight.
Idk why im wiping away every speck of dusk i see at an ungodly hour of 2am.
my mum will definitely be shocked tmr. haha. :)

i probably wont update this blog as frequently anymore.
Unless there's really something to blog about.

it's 3.42 am now. off to do work. bye :)

2010-06-10T02:36:00.007+08:00

I feel like im going to die.

Because of my flu, which came back, the phlegm is clogging up my windpipes and nose.
And the lack of oxygen is to an extent that im having dizzy spells very often.

I scared i will die in my sleep due to lack of oxygen D:

I bought the extra strong panadol and it doesnt work!! urgh.

K digressing a little.

I want this! D:

http://beatsbydre.com/products/Products.aspx?pid=B5622

I need a new headphone/earphone actually. the iphone one suck.
Lady gaga designed it btw. Not a fan of her but this is v nice! :DD

$240 leh!!! ): Im buying the imitation one instead.... until i strike rich.

MONEY! CAN YOU PLEASE FALL FROM THE SKY?!

):

2010-06-09T14:42:00.002+08:00

:D

Im currently learning love ya's chereography. :)
at the rate im going i dont know if i can even master everything before sch reopens. ;/

looking forward to tmr! going back to cchy :D
i missed em so muchhhh ):

2010-06-06T18:59:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM HYUN JOONG! :D

06/06
<3

2010-06-03T19:44:00.006+08:00

ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS.

talking big is seriously useless.
so going out to play ball is more important that pw?! the deadline is today 12am, which is about 4 hrs to deadline.

PISSED. sent countless emails and SMSes but no replies.

damn i missed felly so much. She's like the only one who would reply and do her work seriously.
faster come back from camp!! )):

2010-06-02T01:19:00.001+08:00

another target i aim to complete:

No wearing of contact lenses for the whole of june holidays cept if im going out (doesn't include school).

It's tough but i will do it! :)

i think im having dry eyes due to contact lens and i've been researching on cornea infection and stuff. Scary ):
so im cutting down on my contact lens usage! :)

2010-06-01T23:47:00.002+08:00

HOT!!! :DDD
but i dont really like hyun joong's hairstyle in here though. ;/ doesn't suit him.
ahh i can watch this like a thousand times! :D

today's been rather constructive i guess. Im having my motivation back alr. After realising the fact that i have SO MUCH homework. which includes completing 2 novels. >.>

my maths and geog is in a mess. blahh ):

k side track a little. i trimmed my eyelashes today. It looks damn stumpy and short now ): but it'll grow! :D im gonna spam eyelash tonic muahaha :)

going to mug alr! byebyebye :)

2010-05-31T16:15:00.002+08:00

Omg love ya mv's out!!!

like finally :D

There's leader solo inside. HOT!!!

:DDDDDDDDDDDDD

2010-05-29T03:13:00.009+08:00

HEY PEEPO.

So here's my post about show luo's handshake thingy and concert. :D
kay so had the college day concert in the morning, slacked at j8 for 2 hrs then met alicia.~~

we had to queue for 2 hours or so OUTSIDE city sq mall. It was damn hot and my legs were so tired standing. I was like so damn sweaty la. And we were asked to stand outside because of overwhelming response. Like it's just for tickets holders. They can definitely estimate the number of people going right? Made us wait outside when the air con is just a few metres away.

Anw the queue moved very quickly after show came, that i didnt even have time to wipe the sweat off my oily face, or comb my hair, or spray some perfume(which sabrina asked me to do to catch his attention, with my strawberry perfume LOL). So i went up looking disastrous i guess.
AND the worst thing was.

I was holding on to alicia's tutorial to fan myself when i was outside.
When i went up, Show was looking at the tutorial (which was blue in colour) and i turned to look at the tutorial too.
By the time i turned to look at him, he finished shaking my hand and i had to move to avoid jamming up the queue.
SOOO, i only caught a glimpse of his face ):
But his hand was so warm and fuzzy that i could forget the 2hrs torturous wait just for that 1 second hand shake. :)))) *Flies up to the sky* hehe.
Here's a vid of me shaking his handdd. you can see that i only turned my head after i walked past him T_T

1:00 - 1:02 (the one wearing a black dress)
Thank you nice person who actually filmed the entire handshake thingy! :D

Anw, i think that he look at that tutorial because he thought it was a card or something that i wanted to pass to him.
AWWW T_T I should have prepared one ):

Pictures :D

CUTEEE!!!

Show luo's concert!

It was aweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesome!!!! :DDDD
Cept the fact that we were facing the loud booming speakers cause our seat is @ the balcony ):

Picturesss -> our seating is quite bad (can't get good tickets last min) so the pictures are quite blur D:
And the crowd turns wildddd~

He was playing the drums!! I didn't know he can play drums THAT well.
CUTE :D

Anw he played the drums until his drum stick broke xD
But his drum solo is really v v v niceee :)

I swear i want his pianooo.
It's a GLASS piano leh!!

The guest singer was huang jin lun. quite a surprise. :D
But v sad he didn't sing 'wo de ma'. love that song heh.

-Avatar.

I didn't post everything cause i shall keep the good ones for my own eyes only! :DDD

---------------------------------

Anw some updates about school.

OUR GPP IS APPROVEDDDDD!!! HURRAYYY!!
First group in the class leh. yay happy :D
It's our third draft btw.
Still need some edits though. Like the statistics and stuff.

My agenda for the holidays:
Top priority : MID YEAR EXAMS.
-PW - research, WR.
- holiday homework.
-practise maths (really alot of catching up to do).
-catch up with friends and cchyco peeps

Quite ambitious. dont know if i can complete it anot.
Cause i have a lot, as in REALLY A LOT of content to catch up.especially geog. The content and research that needs to be done is just crazy. >.>

kay i think i'll study now (it's 1:31am) since i procrastinated for the whole day.
jy bah ):

2010-05-25T23:11:00.003+08:00

I promise that i will update on the show luo's handshaking and concert soon k!
Probably update during the june holidays.

2 more days to holidays! PERSEVERE!

anw, ss501's destination album is getting released soon!
looking forward :D

2010-05-25T01:55:00.001+08:00

AHHH IM LOOKING FORWARD TO THE ACTUAL MV!!! :D

2010-05-15T23:58:00.002+08:00

OMG I SUDDENLY REMEMBER SOMETHING THAT'S REALLY FREAKY THAT HAPPENED YTD NIGHT.
Im doing hw but must really post this now.

Idk how i can only rmb this incident now (it's 12am now) but i can't really justify if it's real or just a dream. But i swear it's v v v real.

Ok so i suddenly woke up in the middle of the night. My right hand was at the side of the bed.
So i wanted to move it back onto the bed. AND I REALISE
I CAN'T MOVE MY HAND. There's this numb feeling and i really cannot move it no matter how much strength i used.
I was like omg, and was thinking about the 'gui ya chuang' thing. Idk what to do so i just quickly shut my eyes, hoping that i'll wake up the next day as if nothing happened.
Right after i shut my eyes, my right hand, move by itself onto the bed. WTF.
I swear i didn't move it back there myself cause decided to just leave my hand there at that position.

I know i read somewhere before that sometimes, when you mind is awake, you limbs will still be 'sleeping' so you can't move it.
BUT PROBLEM IS,
why can it move by itself back onto the bed?! There's something called lag time in body movements is it?

It's very vague on my mind but i feel that the whole incident is very real.
OMG FREAKY ;/

Im so afraid to fall asleep tonight! ):

2010-05-14T00:24:00.003+08:00

OMG there was a humongous cockroach in my room just now.
First ever cockroach that appeared in this house since i moved in.

Seriously scared the shit out of me.
Although cockroaches are like an everyday thing in my previous house, cockroaches here are totally unexpected. (my mum is seriously a clean freak)

& IT CAN FLY.

omg no more please.

2010-05-12T22:46:00.004+08:00

Piang eh. wth is freaking wrong with hotmail.
VERY VERY PISSED OFF.
Refresh the page dont know how many times alr. And i urgently need to open an email (the GPP one). Tried clicking it but nothing happened URGH.
And i dont think it's the problem with my comp. Since when i use the sch comp the same problem happened too.
Anybody knows how to solve this freaking irritating problem?!

Anw a bit no link to my rant but,
I GOT MY CUSTOMISED IPHONE COVER ALR! :D
Still getting used to it. Damn hard to press the home and lock button. Need to use nails >.>
And it's v v thick cause of the things that are jutting out.
Think i'll get sick of this inconvenience soon so dont think i'll use this case for long. haha.

byeee.

HOTMAIL FASTER LOAD LAH.

2010-05-09T22:34:00.001+08:00

I have had enough of all your lies.

2010-05-05T22:51:00.003+08:00

I think i've injured my tailbone. I dont know why i got so many freaking problems lah.
This have been a persistent problem though. But i didn't really pay attention to it until today. The pain was really quite immense during the college day tech run until i nearly jumped up of my seat when i sat down. ):

anw im chionging my pi final draft now.
Hope its okay D:
i really did a 180 degree change to it so i dont know if i'll end up changing the wrong stuff.

Studying for econs test later.
Tonight's gonna be a loooong night ;/

Replay
If i could ever replay that song,
i promise
I will appreciate every single word in that lyrics
and every single note in the melody.

-the regret im feeling now is really indescribable.

2010-05-02T23:11:00.002+08:00

the tiring week's over.
i can't believe i actually fell asleep during the night which is the crucial period for doing gpp. ( i have concert during the day of submission)
At least my group members were understanding. Felt quite bad that i didnt do alot ):

The concert's finally over. I can't say it's our best shot but at least, it's over.
Dont know when will be the next time i'll see the J2s but will definitely miss them since i talk to them more than the j1s. ):
next up is college day and SYF. gg. plus the fact that i can't 'hun4' anymore without the j2s. D:

aftermath of this crazy week.
-> spent my entire sunday clearing my sleep debt. (I'm starting to do work only now)
->Flu, a damn bad sorethroat. think fever will be next. ):

BYE.

2010-04-28T22:36:00.002+08:00

Sigh. PW sucks lah.
Thr's this person who wants evryone to follow his idea and his ideas are like too unrealistic.
That's the reason why our ideas have been constantly rejected.
Dont know what the other group members and what they said are for.
SIAN AH.
i know it's kind of early to grumble but just really pissed lah. It's like everything i said sound like a passing remark to him and he just goes on rambling about his idea ZZZ.

This week is really terrible.
i'm moody almost every single day.
TWO MORE DAYS.

My wall of tolerance is crumbling.

2010-04-26T23:36:00.002+08:00

Sigh i failed my napfa 2.4 leh )):
Part of it is because of my injured knee. Another is because i didnt push myself enough.
Should have just do the make up instead ):

anw something damn stupid happened today.
Borrowed facial wash from xing jun after pe. So i was in the bathing cubicle with clara next to me.
She said she needed the facial wash so i had to throw it over the tall wall to the other side.
And you know what?!

I used too much force, and it flew past clara's cubicle, into the next cubicle and INTO the toilet bowl!!!
OMG WO DE TIAN.
If i have such accuracy and strength i could probably join the national basketball team.
haha just kidding.

So anw have to fish out the facial wash using a plastic bag. gross ttm ):

Monday down, 4 more days to go.
JIAYOU! :D

2010-04-24T18:11:00.002+08:00

planning to pon co on tuesday and thursday. ):
Wed is killer. 2.30pm to 8.30pm. Nice one.

Crazy schedule. Should have declined performing for the concert in the first place.
Makes me feel like quitting now );

2010-04-23T23:51:00.002+08:00

Monday: Napfa , CO.
Tuesday: Maths test, afternoon PE, CO.
Wednesday: CO, PI draft 2
Thursday: CO, need to finish up GPP.
Friday: Geog test( 9 topics, high possibility of being pushed to tuesday), CO.

Damn fug. Aside from the 2 deadlines i need to meet for PW, there's 2 tests(esp one very content heavy one PLUS teacher want to push to tuesday. GREAT.), there's CO EVERYDAY and NAPFA. #&)$*#&$*#@!.

I really dread next week to the max.

FML.

2010-04-20T23:59:00.002+08:00

haha looking at the post ytd i feel funny.
Though i wont deny the fact that i do miss them, my emotions ytd was really over lah. ;/
Ignore that post or take it like a pinch of salt, im just mood swinging.

All that laughing nearly killed me today.
I was so high even my pd tutor was shocked.
He was nice though, didn't scold me when i was noisy haha xD

Oh & i think i pulled my hamstring due to shuttle run today.
I can feel like a rubberband being stretched and let go in my thigh when i walk. & it's v painful ):
There's napfa next week leh. How, die.

Short post since im going to do my tutorial.
Im v alert now when it's midnight cause of that 1hr nap.
BYE. :D

2010-04-20T00:13:00.004+08:00

Too much junk food these few days.
Saying hi to diet of tofu and vegetables :)

Anw i'm v scared that im having some kind of sleeping disorders or something.
I can have 7 alarms set, plus asking someone to call me but i did not even hear a single thing.

So that's the reason i'm regularly late in the morning. Plus when i go back home before going for co after that, i'll normally end up sleeping at home and come late for CO ;/
Yea so it kinda worries me if there's ever a fire at my house(touch wood), would i even wake up?
It's kind of irritating in a sense, cause there are days i want to wake up early but wake up in the the afternoon instead. SIGH.
-----------------------------------

Today was such a depressing day.
Everyone arnd me was depressed.
Pe made it worst.
Sigh.
On my way home, so many things went through my mind.
Every minute details seems so clear to me at that point in time.
I just thought about cchy again. And i just got all so emotional.
Dont ever cry in the rain just because nobody will know that you cried.
Because crying in the rain makes you even more depressed to an extent it makes you feel weak.
I felt weak.

20.04.2010. The same day, same month last year, CCHYCO created history.
TMR they are going to make some handprint stuff to commemorate it. Not able to go due to lessons. Sigh.
I think im going to be emotional again tmr. Cause it's such a significant day to me.

Do you know that i miss you all so much?

Im acting cranky but not to an extent of being suicidal.
Just.
Emotional.

2010-04-18T16:01:00.000+08:00

I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this

2010-04-16T00:22:00.003+08:00

IM HATING GEOG TUTORIALS DAY BY DAY.
damn it.
How can it be great with a teacher who gives blurry explanations, whiny, fake, likes to vent anger on us and WEIRD.

Seriously, i feel that she IS a drug addict. She looks like one and she behaves like one. gosh.

she borrowed my tutorial worksheet and after explaining, she was like "who did i borrow this from?"
I said "mine" (in a lethargic manner cause i was REALLY V V tired alr)
then she says "you v unhappy is it? why do you talk in this tone" * in a tone like she's trying to pick up a fight or something"

"and class ah. i can't stand people rolling their eyes. i'm very sensitive to all these".

Yea, maybe it's because so many rolled their eyes at her until she's sensitive, in fact paranoid about it.

What's with all the fked up teachers for our class man.

2010-04-13T19:02:00.003+08:00

I'm baffled by how one person can spend money without guilt and have to cheek to say that she doesn't have the money to pay me back.
It's a debt owed since last year?! And how many times have i reminded her?! Uncountable. I smsed her and she didn't even bothered to reply.
It's not a small sum of money, well to me. And i reminded until i very embarrassed alr.
I'm not money faced but just PISSED OFF.

ANW.

I WANT TO GO SHOW LUO'S CONCERT :D
It sounds quite cool.

http://www.singaporesights.com/sight/show-luo-3d-world-live-tour

inspired by the movie “Avatar”, “3D WORLD LIVE TOUR” will use the latest technology – an LED screen specially made in the US for this concert - allowing concert goers to experience virtual reality in a concert hall, without the use of 3D glasses. As Show himself excitedly exclaims, “The 3D effect would allow me to appear in front of each and every fan in the stadium, no matter where they might be seated. I would be able to create many virtual clones of myself!”

2010-04-12T23:34:00.002+08:00

Hmm PW groups are out and i guess my group is quite alright? :)
Think it's one of the best combi of people i can think of so i should be really thankful :D
HENG AH.

Anw my shopping addiction is coming back again.
Why isn't it there when i spent the whole day walking arnd at orchard. gosh ):

SIGH. Procrastinating now ): the geog qns are all repeating itself and it's pissing me off lah. urgh.

There's afternoon PE tmr. SIGHHH.

2010-04-11T20:34:00.002+08:00

i wanted to blog about friday but havent got the pics yet. ):

anw, im currently troubled because my words sort of hurt someone ;/
But seriously, i was not aware of the situation and stuff. I think i really made a stupid comment.
No wonder she gave a forced smile.
She can't read my blog so what's the point right. sigh.

I more or less completed my PI alr.
Just that i have another 150 words to delete to make it for the word limit. GREAT.
I seriously have nothing more to delete alr cause those are all my main pts alr! D:

SIGHHHHH.
I will be returning home late everyday until first of May due to CO. AISHHHH ):

2010-04-08T23:10:00.001+08:00

im going to make this blog private v soon.
so pls request invite if i happen to forget anybody.

2010-04-07T17:12:00.002+08:00

doing my pi now. ): sian.

anw i&e thingy today was not bad. some quite sian some quite fun.
at least there are no lessons! :D

the witch bullied me today ):
so we were like queueing @ quick bites then i saw this thingy which looks like swiss roll but isn't swiss roll.
I pointed it and asked the witch what that is called. she said "bi4 hua2"
i was like, huh why the food got such a weird name de.
i asked the clara and charmaine both of them said it's called bi4 hua2.
so when it was my turn, i said apprehensively "auntie wo yao yi ge bi4 hua2"
*auntie and uncle beside her gave the stunned look*
auntie: ni yao shen me??
me: bi4 hua2. *points to that thingy*
auntie; ai ya, you point to me what you want.
me: *points* bi hua, bi hua.

Charmaine steps in : auntie she wants a man tou, the brown one.
And they were all laughing behind me! )))): <
evil lah the witch lol. and now im called bi4 hua2 ):
Now the auntie remembers me alr!! LOL. the girl who ordered a bi hua .

sigh off to continue my pi.
and the rashes on my face is damn itchy la ):

2010-04-07T00:17:00.003+08:00

pe today is quite fun haha :)
cause our pe teacher wasn't here today and im v happy that my stamina has improved! :D

think i need to forgo my sleep for pw today since tmr is some i & e thingy, dont need use brains so probably can sleep less.
i srsly want to pon tmr ))):
is like i need to submit my draft by thur and there's cca tmr which means i dont have much time left alr ):
sigh. but the feeling of dragging myself to the clinic and lying about being sick just bugs me.
sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh.

& i have sort of some rashes on my face now probably due to the sunblock.):
it makes my skin look uneven under light.
and it's damn itchy lah. my cheeks are like red 24/7. lol >.>
this sucks. i want my skin to heal asapppppp ):

2010-04-05T00:32:00.002+08:00

i've slacked my weekends away :(spent it away watching down with love lol. the ending is utter crap >.>
anw i see that on fb many are alr doing their pi draft but we are still stuck at brainstorming?? Wth weird.
I dont even know how to start on the pi draft, which is due arnd next week ;/
sigh. i dont even know what's going on now in pw >.>

last week was really slack without pe but tmr the torturous cycle continues.
sick and tired of sch alr. ):

2010-04-04T00:15:00.002+08:00

note to self.
Everytime there's a visitor in class:
1. I'm going to stick a smile on my face with scotchtape.
2. Participate actively in lessons, 100% eye contact. (by 100% i mean 100%)
3. Paticipating in the act with the teacher is a right thing to do.
4. Greet louder than you usually do. "THANK YOU MISS..."

2010-04-02T23:52:00.003+08:00

I seriously hate it when teachers misunderstand.
I shant describe everything here but it really pissed me off for the entire day.
and the fact that i actually respect that tcher quite alot.
whatever.

anw, my poem got read out ytd at the poetry writing workshop ytd -_-
when he went like 'ok this poem.. 'the smell of little india' ' i was like "oh SHIT >.>"
it was quite embarrassing when he's pointing out my spelling mistakes LOL. but c'mon lah. i didn't use microsoft word to type mah >.>
but he read it out cause he liked it :)
i think that it's crappy lah. i spent like 15 mins doing it?

*edit
i forgot to say that miss tay's going away on maternity leave alr ))):
sian. she's a good tcher.
and now ther's a guy with a lvl qualification only teaching us GP and as our pd tutor.
And he has limited teaching experiences.
Die liao lor. GP LEH. get this kind of people to teacher zz wth.

anw i've spent the entire day walking but didnt bought anything.
im really not in the shopping mood so nothing really caught my eye luh. ):
next time bah.

k im tired bye

2010-03-29T22:58:00.002+08:00

Resillience thingum sucks and is a stupid waste of time.

it's boring most of the time. The afternoon sun makes it worst. And i feel that i always drag the class's progress cause i rly very scared of doing the stuff.
and i never do any high elements >.>

whatever lah okay.
i have sunburnt, headache due to the sun, 'fried hair' (my hair texture is like damn rough and damaged all thanks to the sun) and HOMEWORKKKKK. ):

there's fol tmr. think it would be a lot better without the sun.
I have 10 newspaper analysis and some other tutorials to do. good luck man.

2010-03-29T00:11:00.002+08:00

I hope that my decision to go for the resillience camp isn't a mistake.
I have to wake up at 5.45am tmr => i will be super blur for the entire day due to lack of sleep => I may do some stupid things or embarrass myself for the high elements stuff.
Aish. thinking about waking up early in the morning makes me dread it alr.
and part of me wants to pon because i need more time to study!!
i spent like the entire afternoon today doing practically nothing. aishhh. I'M LOSING FOCUS!!! ):

anw i got my iphone. in fact,a few days ago.
part of the reason why i wasted my afternoon away -_- i got hooked on the games alr haha.

need to sleep alr and i have to wear some baggy auntie track pants tmr ))))))):

2010-03-20T01:44:00.004+08:00

I WANT AN IPHONEEEEEEE.

HOPE THAT MY DAD KEEPS HIS PROMISE.

I CHARGED MY PHONE JUST NOW AND THE

BATTERY VALUE ACTUALLY INCREASED. O.O

OKAY, I'M STILL GOING TO TREAT IT AS IT'S SPOILT

SO THAT I CAN HAVE MY NEW PHONEEE. :D

I'M VERY HIGH NOW FOR SOME REASON THOUGH

I'M DOING GP PROJECT NOW. WHATEVER.

MY COMP IS GOING TO BE SENT FOR REPAIR TMR.

MISS ME :D

I SHALL BE GONE FOR A WEEK.

HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO.

2010-03-18T17:55:00.003+08:00

I'm back from camp! :D
it was okay, not as bad as i thought it would be. more to the awesome side ((:
It was badly planned but my hyper-ness and the people really made the camp better heh :D

the sleeping part was torturous. With so many people squeezed into a dusty and small classroom.
other than tht, practice was okay and yea, it was quite enjoyable :)

now it's back to homework and then school again.

Things that i need to complete for the remaining days:
-GP project.*
-Lit project
-Lit essay*
-Maths tutorial
-Read up econs lecture notes.
-Read up rocks and weathering chpt for geog.
-Finish the entire stack of newspapers.

*- by friday.

posting this up to remind myself of what to do.
cause i kept losing the piece of paper for this -_-
im tired from that 2 hrs of sleep so im going to sleep alr. byee :D

2010-03-17T01:44:00.002+08:00

ok somebody emailed me what to wear alr. haha. i dont need to wear underwear le! :D
can't believe i got all so emotional about this. yea together with the homework and that friggin stack of newspaper, i was really moody for the whole day.

i will be going to co camp tmr with my mum's ancient phone.
Without my phone, i will be really v moody for the whole day. (proven)
So i can predict that my co camp's gonna be a disaster.

hope that the sec 1 camp history wont repeat itself.

2010-03-16T16:48:00.002+08:00

CO camp tmr and i dont even know what's the attire for it.
So sick and tired of sms-ing people and not getting a single response.

WHATEVER LAH OKAY.
I'll JUST WEAR MY UNDERWEAR AND GO LAH. _|_

2010-03-16T02:23:00.001+08:00

Fruit of my four years labour.

Officially graduated.

2010-03-15T02:26:00.003+08:00

Oh no e learning's up.
and there's like damn loads of things to do lor.
Besides that i have to read finish this stack of uncompleted newspapers:

It looks okay here but mind you, i spent 3 hrs reading the newspaper today and completed less than 1/10 of it. it's like the stack will never get diminished or something.

and tutorials AND amaths AND reading up of lecture notes.
urgh fug.

2010-03-12T22:28:00.002+08:00

I'm getting away from studies related stuff just for today. which is like 4-5 hours or so. treasuring every minute of it :)

i'm dreading co every week alr.
i hate being the only experienced one in the section. it's like i have to practise extra hours as compared to the non experienced. shouldn't it be like the opposite or something -_-

it's totally different from how i used to feel in cchy. co was a look forward to and something that pulls me through the dreadful weeks.
Sigh. why is everything going downhill.

This scenario has flashed across my mind once, but i've never thought it would materialise.
It's a problem i would have to face every week and every second of it is just nerve wrecking.

2010-03-10T22:27:00.003+08:00

TWO more days, to the march holidays.
TWO more days until i can finally wear back my contact lens. (actually im supposed to abstain from it for a week but I DONT CARE ALR).
Spectacles makes me moody, for some reason. and it gives me headache. argh

my march holidays will be equal to no holidays.
i need to complete the e learning assignments,homework, 2d1n camp for co, loads of catching up to do for econs and math & rock chapter for geog.

aish. at least im getting my motivation back.

It's long since i had a good laugh.
I'm just not happy here.

2010-03-10T00:12:00.003+08:00

Tuesday's torture is over.
i'm having tuesday blues.
Morning till 6.15pm without long breaks and there's afternoon pe.

anw there's no pe today cause of the lightning risk thingy. dont know if got make up anot but whatever since i dont think i can run today. muscle ache until have difficulty in walking alr. >.>

i think im a little more motivated alr in a sense. since for the past few weeks i was really in holiday mood.
looking at the rate im going, i think i will flunk everything.
now even geog is tough. argh.

2010-03-07T19:14:00.002+08:00

I'm just trying to relieve some stress from homework and pw, can or not? lol.

I nearly died of heart attack just now when the edited slides for pw mysteriously disappeared in my comp though i've saved it. and mind you, i spent like 2 hours from my precious time doing that ok.
luckily, i found it at some remote area of the comp system :D yay.

idk if i want to go to mayday's dna concert.
my senior's brainwashing me to go argh. LOL.

2010-03-07T00:51:00.002+08:00

i can finally get my hands back on the computer again.
after 5 days, my comp is still the same, screen still spoilt. cause i have to supposedly wait for 1 week to replace the entire screen.
i couldn't wait since i got mock pw to do so got it back. -_- wasted my five days.
what's wrong with sony man. i only got this comp for like 1-2 months and the screen is friggin spoilt alr. plus i treated it like a princess without dropping or even knocking it once??

the week kinda suck.
my swollen eye and eczema on my lips all came at once. and the worst thing is, i finished my eczema cream -_-ll. and the worst-est of the worst thing is that i have photo taking for the week!!!
so on thursday i was crazily putting the towel soaked with warm water on my swollen eye. it kind of work, though still quite swollen.
and on friday before photo taking i had to apply concealer on the eczema infected area, which hurt damn loads k. and the surface of my lips look like old chang kee's curry puff after putting the concealer. >.> hope it's not obvious in the photo. or just hope that the person who photoshop the pictures will apply loads of liquify on my lip area.

dang. i'm so tired and there's a lot of things to do tmr.
and seriously, for days after cca or pe i will just flop on anything i see once i reach home.
sigh. i really hope that they can put afternoon pe with cca day so that i have lesser days to stay back ):

2010-02-28T18:27:00.003+08:00

i was surprised that i actually made my first baby step to training up my stamina. i went to yishun stadium to run! :D
but didnt' run much though. at least i've tried.

think i'll swim instead. it's less tedious and can expand my pathetic lung capacity.
and aj's like so near to yck swimning complex. maybe can go swim after sch ;P

all the best for me tmr. i can't even complete two rounds without walking through most of it.
sian ):

after some pondering, i called him.
he sounded annoyed, probably because i havent called him for the past 2 weeks.
what can i do?he had already disappeared from my life and is of no significance to me anymore.

2010-02-28T00:41:00.003+08:00

went yjc funfair today!
it was okay i guess? since we spent like almost all of our coupons on the movie thing.
aj should hold this kind of big funfairs too ):

have to wait like 1hr to watch this movie -_-

omg my fringe look like lego hair.
oh yea, does the new haircut really make me look old uh? er zi said i looked older ): hmph

photos taken while we were waiting for the movie 'coming soon'.
anw the horror movie was quite nice. :) it's just some clips of the movie 'coming soon' with some kind of skid going on at the same time.
it was more of a comedy than horror. when the person was telling ghost stories about some dancer who died in the ava room of yj, everyone was like laughing and the person keep telling us not to laugh xD
and the narrator said something like, 'that old woman should be hanged!' and somebody shouted 'hung', which is wanting to correct his grammer mistake lah.
but hanged is actually gramatically correct. -.-
for the entire duration i was really worried that the actors(especially those acting as ghosts) will come and scare us or something cause we were sitting at the front row of seats. but that didn't happen lah :)
but the concept was really nice and it's kind of fun! :)

had subway at ssc after that cause qw and i were like super hungry ;/
i reached home later than expected today so i only completed on gp hw and slept for the rest of the day.
need to chiong tmr alr! ):

there's something under my eyelid that keeps rubbing my eyeballs. pain ttm lah ):

2010-02-27T00:19:00.002+08:00

I THINK I'M GONNA FLUNK MATHS IN JC LIKE SERIOUSLY.
first the easy chapters are alr making my head spin and i'm taking h1 only -_-
secondly the tutor is so.........
i mean can see that he is willing to help lah but when he teaches he goes one big round for just a qn.
his voice is monotone, so it's like lullaby for sleeping.

geog tutor isn't miss johnson ): she's such a nice teacher. but our current one isn't that bad.
and geog in uni is like so interesting can! :D

tutorials are coming in. the heat is increasing alr. all the best for me when pw comes.

2010-02-26T13:49:00.002+08:00

I will be going for co 2 hrs later. zzz
anw this week had been quite good. think my class is cool :) lol.

next week is quite a dread, cause that's when pe starts. grr. ;/
i can alr die just by running one round. or even less than one round around the track.
plus the fact that im sick with the phlegm choking my throat every now and then.
dread dread dread dread dread.

this weekend's gonna be busy.
meed to complete the stack of tutorials, go yj fair and running at yishun stadium. -_-